How my time looks like,
it's also it can be also so so different.
I one time wrote a poem
where I described like
when I wasn't feeling well
how sometimes
the way from the bed
to the kitchen seems like it
might take 5 hours,
and the way to the bathroom 3,
and the way to the balcony only one and a half.
Um, and um, sometimes,
when I'm not well then
I'm like in my room
and looking into the corners
of my room and kind of
get stuck in there -
and there is no time when this happens.
Sometimes I feel like time is very spacious,
it's also very porous, and sometimes it's
very dangerous because it can have holes,
like triggers, where you fall through...
and then you end up in a sea...
of like
of sound.
That is also connected to time for me.
And then it's really difficult to get back,
but what works best is to use the senses.
Sometimes time is also a negotiation
when it's experienced in a collective.
It can bring up conflict.
It can also bring up a
feeling of interdependence,
of being connected,
because you experience being in the same time,
being in the same spacetime
(sound of the wind blowing).
Also time is circular because
things are reoccurring,
it's never just going somewhere
and then ending there.
I've never experienced time
in a linear way and
I've always been obsessed with
thinking about time,
also about time travel for example,
like going back into the past,
and healing your past,
and changing the future,
and all of this is connected
and all of this is kind of... spacetime.